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I feel terrible

Wed, 23 Nov 2011 14:20:33 +0100

I've done something really bad. I didn't want to do it, I was just being pushed to do it. Yes, it was my choice and I take complete responsibility for it, but I was honestly kind of pushed to do it. I feel terrible. I don't know what to do. I want to make this person happy but at the same time I want to make myself happy. My friend stopped it before but asked and pushed me to do it again. My friend also ended it again, and I really wanted to be the one to end it first. I feel really bad. I feel like I did something wrong to that friend, like a mistake to make that friend hate me.��I know I should feel bad I honestly don't forgive myself, and I probably never will. I just want to have the strength to like never do it again...

Cheater in me

Thu, 30 Dec 2010 16:33:36 +0100

I really want to cheat on my husband so bad it is driving me insane almost. I hate him with all my might. Not to mention the fact that we have been married for almost 2 years and have only had sex 4 times all of which sucked badly. When he gets back from his work trip I think i will be forced to let him know that I am leaving him for good. The only reason why I haven't cheated is cause I am to afraid to be punished by GOD and curse any future relationship I may have with someone else. OMG! why did I marry him? I thought it would be way easier to leave him than it actually is esp since he makes all the money and Im a stay at hom mother cause my medical condition will not allow me to work. SSI please hurry up and go through so I may be forever done with his sucky penis having self and get me a real man that will knock my back out and put me to bed. Mind blowing sex that will drive me insane. Is that to much to ask for people? I think not! I just want to be sexed up and down in every way possible.��It may even help my health problems. : - }

Ahh, I don't even know what I should name this

Sun, 13 Jun 2010 04:51:42 +0100

Everyone always says to be thankful for what you have because there are people out there who could never even imagine living the way you do.
People can even tell you themselves all the crap they've had to go through, which makes you realize just how lazy and arrogant you've been during your own life.
I think about this all the time, but I'm not perfect. Honestly, I sort of am a brat, but I feel TERRIBLE after hearing these people and their stories and then still worrying about my own problems. I mean, I guess it's just human nature to worry about yourself, but I feel so stuck up and feeling like I'm selfish and stupid makes me hate myself ten times more than I already do.
Am I wrong?

Benchod shu thase aa jagat nu!?

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 18:44:23 +0100

Benchod shu thase aa jagat nu. Ek problem hoy to kaho.. ahiya to anek chhe.. Anek nahi pan Ek upay to batavo... jyare ek upay hoy to pan batavo..

i wish i wuz going to hell

Tue, 14 Apr 2009 05:24:13 +0100

ive struggled with undiagnosed major depressive disorder since i was 14. its undiagnosed because ive never told anyone the problems i had... lots of suicidal thoughts, etc. i also think im bipolar. have high days and low days. the low days are most interesting cause i do things i never thought i would ever be able to do.

the reason i wish i wuz going to hell is because i am so addicted to porn i cant escape. its the only cure for my depression and then it makes my depression even worse. its the only thing that gets my mind off of my shitty life.

On a Highway to Hell

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 09:23:53 +0100

I cried in Sunday School once when I was a little boy and told the nun that I hated her... Am I going to hell?

Forbidden love

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 18:04:56 +0100

I had sex with my wife's niece. She's 36 years old and she is married too. We've been doing it for over 2 years now and we really enjoy doing it. I can hardly wait for the next time!

tellin you

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 15:55:12 +0100

now bout 2 1/2 years ago i was going out with my girlfriend of 2 1/2 years and were me and her broke up werer stop talking and i had sleep with my best friend and he's a boy and i and its been about 1yr and i dont kno know how to tell her that with out her levin me. yes i messed up but i love this girl with all my heart and i dont want 2 hurt her anymore then i already have, but i just need 2 kno if i should tell her or jus let it go????

bulimia

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 08:46:18 +0100

I've struggled with bulimia, binge eating, and anorexia for the past five years. When I'm starving, I love my eating disorder. I love seeing my body shrink. But the pain is unbearable. My body is weak. I pass out. My skin gets bad. I feel dirty and ugly. But I'm getting thinner, so it's all okay. And once I've reached a certain weight, I often start eating again. Not just an apple, but Easy Mac, chicken tenders, fudge, and other unhealthy foods. It's a vicious cycle. And whenever I'm binging, I dream about the next time I'll starve myself to lose the weight again. Even though it's painful, I'm in control when I'm not eating. And I like that. I need it.

Lost Faith

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 05:07:41 +0100

I lost my faith three years ago.  The thing is, no one knows.  I feel so cornered by the religious culture and ashamed of myself that I can't be honest with everyone about my religious beliefs.....so that maybe then I could figure out those beliefs....or the absence thereof.

When I lost my faith, I knew it was because I couldn't be 100% me.....that is, the bisexual that I am.  I also knew that no one who professed mainline Christianity would ever acknowledge me without being discriminatory.  You could say my unbelief was evidenced by others' ostentatious bigotry.

But now I'm left with still no one to share life and spirituality with.  People in my life and network, including family and friends, suddenly became a tangled pattern of untrustworthy people.