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Since You've Been Gone...

Wed, 11 Jan 2012 06:23:24 +0100

I didn't know where else to turn to, so I found this website. I'm grateful there's a place I can share my thoughts with the world at 1:00am. Been thinking about a lot, and for some reason, I've been thinking about HIM all day.

Dear *EX,*

It's been 4 years since you've held my hand and called me your friend, your lover. A lot has changed during our years apart. You got married to the woman you left me for and started a family - living the white picket fence life, it seems. Here I am living the career-driven/busy/city life...always traveling, always on-the-go. Still single.

It took me a long time to rid the anger and hurt you caused. Even though I know we're better off and weren't meant to be, I still miss you. I miss our friendship. Now that the pain has subsided, I realized that I never stopped missing you since the day you left me for HER. What happened to my best friend?

Both of us have grown up in different ways since our naive relationship. I think you'd realize that I'm more confident in myself...a much stronger person since you left. All those nights of crying myself to sleep...all those holidays spent alone while you spent them with your new family...all those songs that would play at the bars and stop me dead in my tracks...all those Yankees games I went to without you sitting next to me....even though you physically haven't been with me, my heart has dragged you along in this journey called, LIFE. I wish it would just dump you on the side of the road, kinda what you did to me back in 2007.

You reached out to me, asking if we could be "friends" again one day. I used to think it was my pride that made me refuse your oh-so-tempting request...but...it was my self love. There's absolutely nothing you can offer me that I can't offer myself. Oh, and haven't you ever heard of that saying, "You can't have your cake and eat it too?" Well, same goes for this. You made your bed. You chose her.

You closed the door on us, but I was the one who locked it and threw away the key. Remember what you said that night? You told me, "I know I broke your heart, but get over it." Well, guess what....I did get over it. I might still miss you and the memories we shared together, but I know you miss me that much more.

If you could only see all the experiences I've had...the people I've met....the places I've been (I made it to Seattle, by the way...remember that?). Since you've been gone, I've had the time of my life. I've done it all on my own, but I know I'm stronger than you'll ever be.

Since you've been gone...maybe you learned a thing or two on how to be kind to others...maybe you don't drink as much....maybe you learned that jumping from one relationship to the other and getting a girl pregnant 4 months after leaving your ex is not the best way to go. Just sayin....

While you're pretending to live the white picket fence life, I'll be on a plane to the next best destination, counting my lucky stars that I'm not chained to that fence with you.

Sincerely,

Released from Captivity

Where are you Bowow?

Sun, 01 Jan 2012 16:59:48 +0100

Bowow, my 7 year Shih Tzu old dog ran away on New Year's Eve of 2012:(
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He started running away from home when his long time girlfriend, Missy (female Maltese shih tzu dog) died :( He used to stay inside our house because he is our first dog but then other dogs came into our lives, Matty his son and Kukut his daughter, and so they all have to stay in their dog house. I know he didn't like to stay in the cage. He wants to stay inside our house but because he was so grown up, peeing everywhere and his hair is all over the place we can no longer let him inside the house.
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I know, I became very busy with school and other stuffs that I seldom play with him. That, sometimes I am too lazy to let him walk after he have eaten his food. I'm so sorry. :( I don't want him to go and leave me. I'm sorry that I became insensitive to his needs (emotionally). Please remember Bowow, that despite the things I lack, I don't want you to go and leave me. I love you so much, I wanna see you so bad.
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My 2012 didn't start as happy as I expected. We looked all over for him. We are all sad. Please come home Bowow. I miss you so much.... don't make me cry for the rest of my life. :((

Girlfriend

Fri, 23 Dec 2011 06:16:10 +0100

My girlfriend of 2 1/2 years has been not wanting to spend as much time with me. She also seems to be very judgemental of me, and at the same time very hypocritical.��The last time we had sex was almost 2 months ago. She participates in activities that she doesn't enjoy, just to be with other people, and I am not to be involved. She makes me feel very unappreciated. She says that she loves me, but I never seem to feel any type of sincereity in what she tells me. Sometimes I feel as though she is trying to get me to break up with her. I am also suspicious of her cheating on me. My definition of cheating starts at flirting. I feel that she is not as commited or as infatuated with me, as I am of her. These are things on my mind about my girlfriend.

Love My Life!

Mon, 19 Dec 2011 03:02:11 +0100

Right, so, about a year ago I was going through quite a rough patch in my life, my dad couldn't get a job and my mum left him because of this, my uncle was involved in an accident and critically ill, I was doing bad in school, had no friends and I was bi and hadn't came out. Thank God, my dad set up his own business and him and my mum got back together and we are now��financially comfortable, my uncle has fully recovered, I moved schools and have a great group of friends who would do anything for me vise versa, I got a whole bunch of test results on Friday and all of them were above average, and about 3 months ago I came out to my family and friends and thankfully they love me and treat me just the same. I'm just so grateful for this life!
I'm also so happy that it's Christmas in 6 days and I've got everyone good presents this year which has always been a worry! This next week is packed with birthday parties, town and cinema etc with my friends, absolutely living for this!!!

Tell me a story...

Fri, 14 Oct 2011 03:09:31 +0100

It all started in April. We started hanging out, and everything was perfect. I started falling in love with you, but in June everything went wrong. You started ignoring me and talking to other girls, and then I got "I...can't do this anymore.."
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You never told me why, though I asked repeatedly. Months went by. You'd talk to me, occasionally sent a text asking how I was.
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School started. You'd look at me, give me that knowing smile, look away. Then you met her, and you guys started dating. She was everything I wasn't, good and bad. She was a cheerleader, blonde, super skinny; but she was mean, she played you. When you guys finally broke up, you still hung onto her. Kind of like I did to you, when you broke up with me.
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Then I met Him. He's wonderful. He tells me how pretty I am every day, asks how my day is, tells me the sweetest things, football player, gorgeous. I could fall in love with a guy like him.
But, we got in a fight,��and now I'm not sure if He's mad at me or not. His friends tell me he's not, that he thinks I'm the one who's mad.
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Then, when she was finally done with you for good, you decide to start to hate Him, and start acknowledging me again. And now this is terribly hard. I'm tired of waiting for you. You always do this. When I'm done waiting, you come back? Why? Can't you just let me be happy? When I see you, it's like a stab in the heart.
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What am I supposed to do?

I'm feeling so sad

Sun, 09 Oct 2011 00:40:58 +0100

I want a boyfriend, I need a boyfriend; and please, please, don't tell me that I'm pathetic or will be just fine without one. I've got much love from my family and friends, but the love from a significant other is totally different and that's what I need now. I need a physical affection and please take a note, I'm not talking about sex. I'm talking about someone who gives you long, comforting hugs, who gives you kisses that will make you feel so loved, and beyond that, someone who understands and cares about you and makes you laugh. So, there were these two guys. The first one was a jerk but the second one's still driving me nuts until now. Oh, God.. I only asked for a boyfriend, a kind-hearted one. I don't like being lifted up by hopes but then getting crashed on the ground all of a sudden by reality, it makes me really sad.

Carelessness

Tue, 19 Jul 2011 17:46:00 +0100

just 1 mistake i almost lost someone.. now were back its not the same as before.. i hope my efforts will not be wasted. i hope youll be mine forever..

Underground Music Scene and A Huge Crush

Sat, 28 May 2011 07:01:36 +0100

I cannot believe I went across town to a show he was going to be at, only to see him for like ten minutes. I'm so stupid. He saw me when we walked in, and he didn't even acknowledge me. He moved on to some other girl after a while. After her, it looked like he was coming straight towards me, but instead stopped to talk to this one guy standing right in front of me. After what seemed like ages, he finally came and said hello. He led me to the front of the crowd so I could have a better view of the show and spent some time with me before leaving me to go outside. I mean, granted, I didn't say a word to him while we were standing there watching the performance, so I guess I shouldn't be too harsh. I'm so confused about him. I like him so much, but I know he doesn't feel the same way...

love?

Wed, 25 May 2011 14:48:36 +0100

i loved this boy since 8 years ago and after 3 years in the dark,i finally braced myself and told him how i felt. he kept on ignoring my messages after that. okay,i should've understood his message but i guess i just didn't want to give up. i texted him almost everyday, kept myself updated on his life, and waited. as a result, he played with my feelings. when he was bored, he called or texted and flirted with me. when he got something better to do, of course i was forgotten. i still love him but there is no way i'm accepting him into my life(if he actually ask to). 8 years is a long time to be patient and wait for someone when you know that you ain't got no chance. i wish one day, something like that'll happen to him (of course it will be way awesome if i am the one doing it to him,but that's just impossible) so that he'll learn to appreciate others in the future.

Just a Crush

Sat, 14 May 2011 21:58:38 +0100

So, I met this guy, Julian, a month ago and right away, we clicked. We get along very, very well. We have a ton in common and we text each other every day. At the time that I met him, I was in a long distance relationship, which was on its way out. It hadn't been working for the last three months or so and my then-boyfriend and I pretty much just thought of each other more as just friends than as boyfriend and girlfriend. At the time that I met Julian, my then-boyfriend and I were on a break and I could tell already that we were probably going to break up. So, upon connecting with Julian, he asked me for my number and asked me to have lunch with him and...I freaked. I mean, other than my then-boyfriend, I had never been asked for my number or out on a date before. And since I was still with my boyfriend, figuratively, at the time, I made things kind of awkward with Julian by making it very clear right away that we were only ever going to be friends. He was okay with it and we have been friends ever since.

My boyfriend and I broke up shortly after that break and Julian was there for me through it all. Although it has only been a month since I've known him, I feel like he's the person who just gets me the most and I love spending time with him and talking to him, right from the first day I met him. Every time we go out somewhere, I just feel extremely happy, and lately, I've found myself thinking of him almost all the time. I'm beginning to think I'm starting to develop a crush on him, which worries me a little and makes me feel like an awful person for getting over my ex so quickly. I mean, granted, the relationship had been dead for a while, but still, I can't help but feel terrible. Also, I'm afraid that if I let any feelings for Julian develop further, I might lose him as a friend...sigh, well, that is all.