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Death of a husband

Mon, 23 Jan 2012 03:49:31 +0100

Its really hard to explain.I had dated this young man when we were just kids he was four��years younger than me but he did love me well i met this really handsome guy going ot Germany this was in the80s lot of drugs and stuff so ithough i cld go to germany have a miltary life all wld be good well shit is what dreams are made ofand thats what i got was shit he liked to drink and whin he drank he liked to fight and i am not one to back down he 6ft 180me a 5 3 buck ten well he got kicked out of army dirty urine he got state side i cld not wait to get home had a lil girl thought things wld work out lots of fights one baby later living in different state i had had enough well life went on like that for 6 years he left never a dime for child support xmastime findcheck book two monts later i am on my way to prison for six years he gets kids gets from under hte child support anyway come home back to my girls spent the next 4 years watchimg them grow up then after lots of lonely nights cuz i was all bout my girls here comes the love of mylife that i hadwalked away from we had 8 great years togethre just this 23 of dec his birthday he dies we were not prepared stayed wit my daughter cuz i needed helped, had brain lung cancer lived 8 months, paid her bills all that now they are moving on and they ar going some place i cant go espically right now my whole life is falling apart and no safety net iam scared to old to start over no one wants me cause i am a burden to ppl that were supposed to love me i just today got his death certificate wish i had the nerve to end it all but i sont like pain hate to tear up my car some one cld use it i just dont know plz begging for guidance i dont know what to do

I feel like an outcast

Sun, 22 Jan 2012 01:43:59 +0100

Ever since i can remember my mother and I havent been the best of friends and the only person that keeps my mom from loving me like a mother should is my younger sister. yes i know it may sound like i am jealous of my younger sister and i am a little jealous of her only because she robs me of my mother's love. but its not just me my aunt and older sister have noticed. i have always gotten hit because of my little sister and the scars have healed on my skin but the ones in my heart never will. my moyher always thinks i lie and i cant try and find love or comfort in another persons arms because she quickly pushes them out of my life. i have thought of suicide many times and i dont want to be like this. i dont want to feel like i have no way out. i want to have a future and have kids but i feel like the problems
with my mom will always haunt me and wont let me live the life i would want to live next to my boyfriend. i have tried many many times to become closer to her but she just pushes me away. i dont know how i would want to make ammends with her if she never protected me from others. she never protected me from my step dad and how he would molest me. i have never told her this but if i tell her i feel like she would call me a liar like she has done with other things.��the hate that i feel for these two grows and grows each day. i try not to hold grudges because thats not me but i can no longer keep it bottled up. i have to share this with some one but i cant because like i said anyone who tries to comgort me ends up being pushed away by my mother. i cant wait until the day im 18 and i leave this house. i will show her how she has wronged me all these years. if my little sister crosses me the wrong way the way she did today i will rip her face off. IDGAF!!! i really need some advice because when i cant talk to my boyfriend,friends or sister (she moved tk new york for the same reason) about these things because she takes my phone away, i feel like doing crazy things and this iis my last resort. i have tried writting my feelings in a diary/ journal an i have tried drawing but those things no longer work for me. please dont judge just tell me what i can do because right now i feel like just swallowing pills and drift away into sleep and never have to wake up again.

I hate bullies!

Fri, 23 Dec 2011 06:17:16 +0100

Bullies. Seriously, I despise them. I mean, why do they think they are so much greater than other people that they can make that person's life harder? Luckily, I've never been bullied, I just get the odd remark about being gay because I hang around with someone who is a homosexual. I know this sounds really cheesy but it is my dream for the world to live without racism, sexism, ageism or any other type of discrimination. There is no place for bullies on this earth, they are what is bringing us down..

Hate

Wed, 07 Dec 2011 07:10:19 +0100

There is a bitch at work that treats me like shit. It is reaching a point where I will have to call her a bitch to her face. I think she might be mentaly ill. I don't know. Everyone at work knows she is odd, but she has been there so long, longer then even the managers.

I'm not trying to be heard

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 00:54:19 +0100

Stop. You are not useless, it's what you are doing that's useless. Saying somebody else is useless? You may not know it, but you are trying to get attention. If you truly hated some one, you wouldn't care about them. You know that the person you think you 'hate' is always in your head. What they wear, what they say, how they act. Truth is, you aren't in their head. I thought I hated my sister. I cried over everything she said about me every night. But I didn't truly hate my sister. I hated how she treats me like shit and I have no say because I don't what to say and my parents would easily get annoyed. They don't care. She doesn't care. . I don't want peace with them. Of course I can't run away now. It will be worth the wait.

I hate the parents of kids!

Sun, 22 May 2011 00:56:21 +0100

As a single mother of 2 teenager's, I must admit my extreme hatred of kids and their idiot parents. Kid's now a days SUCK and their parents need to be beaten. I consider myself lucky because my kids never threw fits at home or in public. Why, you might ask? I never would allow it. They would have been punished. People now day's need to be smacked if they don't believe in discipline. I was and turned out alright. I hate kids so much that I'm just waiting for mine to move out on their own so I could finally find and attain a house in an adult only neighborhood.

8 Reasons I hate dogs

Fri, 29 Apr 2011 00:14:02 +0100

1.They will poop all over your yard. Even if it's not their yard!
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2.One time a neighbors dog killed my cat. RIP 4.7.09
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3.They go crazy if you try to ignore them
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4.They are very territorial. And they bark every time anything get's close to their house.
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5. They leave hairs all over the house. But all mammals may do that so it's not really a big deal.
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6.They are grass eaters and will vomit everywhere.
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7.They pee everywhere to cover up anther dogs scent.
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8.They sometimes are very agressive.
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This is why I hate those little brats

Dress Codes

Thu, 31 Mar 2011 19:17:25 +0100

For all you people who go to school, don't you hate dress codes? They suck and alot of kids get like a million dress code detentions each DAY. At my middle school we have a very strict dress code. For example, no hoodies even if the hoods are down, no pants,skirts, etc., above the knee, no shirts with big pictures of words(what the heck), but, they will exept it as long as it is a design, and many more things that you are not aloud to wear. I don't get why we don't wear uniforms. I would not mind. If it makes getting ready in the morning easier. What do you think? Please comment:)

Life

Mon, 21 Mar 2011 11:50:45 +0100

Why is it that people feel the need to make life harder for others. Just because you've got problems doesnt mean you have the right to make other peoples lives worse.
So many of you complain about your lives, thats your parents wont give you money, or are making you stay in school. Dont complain about things that arent problems.
I hear you complain, and watch you walk around school showing off scars from cutting.
I have never cut, or hurt other people to make myself feel better. I had a childhood that no kid should ever have to go through, i went through things that you couldnt imagine, but everyday i get up and help people to the best of my ability.
Honestly, grow up!

Shout out

Wed, 22 Dec 2010 14:35:16 +0100

I feel so tired and sick of everything. I hate everyone around me.