Thanx 'Duder' for your advice. But when i try to talk her things get even worse, I too sometimes feel annoying talking to her as she seems not to be interested in starting it again & she doesn't even care for me.The reason she gives is that i am not that same person, becomes rude & hyper. She says her life is much better now. But that's a very selfish reason according to me. On the other hand its nearly impossible to forget her, and still want her. I am ready to change but she don't wanna give a chance. I can just wait and pray.

You are experiencing "envy", One of the deadly sins as society would perceive it. We all want something that others have (Great job,car,wife/husband,sex etc.) Welcome to life. We work to get money and the only person that notices is the land-lord,Wife (if a male and married) and tax collectors. Sadly, No one gives a damn about the efforts people make to survive. If people aren't noticing the good deeds you put yourself through for them, then you need better people in your life. No one should have to deal with unappreciative morons that can't appreciate the time,effort and work you do. This applies everywhere unfortunately. IF *YOU* think that what you put into a job asked to be done by yourself is done sufficiently then don't worry about what others think, People are jerks...accept for who you are and commend yourself for being a hard worker who's honest and passionate about what you do. That's all I can say. Good luck.

Not everyone views life in the same way you do. I commend you to trying to make a better tomorrow within society but people are so messed up today and hateful that what you are trying to achieve isn't obtainable. People hate,discrimate,hurt others just to make themselves feel good. If they can bring another person down emotionally it makes their sick,twisted heart feel so much better because they be-littled another human being lower then the level of anguish that is being experienced by the person who delivered the blow.
 
  The factors are more likely deeper then your understanding. Such as a person who gets ridiculed for being "Obese" can you sit back and imagine what's going on in that poor person's head when being called a "Fat ass"? We all wish we could live in a picture perfect paradise but it's simply not going to happen. People will live,die,act like children and possible never grow up mentally. That's their choice.

This sounds like a tale of "love gets old" kind of scenario. All you can do is be yourself. Show her that you care,Sit down and have a long talk with her,let her know you are willing to make changes in your perspective of the relationship. Not only tell her but show her incentive by showing her. Respect her wants and needs. Whatever you two are upset about,Try to talk it out and if the oven gets too hot. Take a break to cool off and start again. If she isn't willing to work it out if you tried it all. Then you must face facts and wake up to reality. You'll have to move on. Don't push yourself too hard because that'll will force you into a pillow of tears. I've been there, it's hard to say good-bye. However if she's willing to listen and you are willing to change yourself in a way that's good for both of you,then you are on your way to something "Beautiful". Good luck.

This is all truth here. I thought I was the only one who can't stand kids for the life of me. Comfort is taken to thos who feel the same way. Kids ruin lives and steal the joy away from life. Sure many parents claim "OH my kid makes me feel young again" Sure, that's just the fabrication made up in your consciousness. Kids drain money,steals happiness,kills time ETC. That's not fair for anyone. We should work,have fun and the hell with anything Tying anyone down. The world has plenty of kids, we don't need to make more. I'm married and my wife don't want kids and neither do I and that's the best decision one could ever make.

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Just a quick update,These little bastards that live by us dig through the garbage and drag it under the tree in our park. Their parents of course do nothing,Those are their precious little prodigys"as if this garbage fort building nonsense will lead to a future in Architecture" Anyway... They threw a old diaper at Me and My wife as we where coming home from a nice night out. Yes...you read that correctly. They Threw a f@#$ing diaper at us. A diaper. A goddanmed diaper. I turned around and yelled at them,"You know when I was a child we didnt play in garbage"
The next day this big fat obnoxious cow came to our house and had the following to say," If you dont stop yelling at My kids Im going to call the police and file a report on you." Isnt that typical? Their kids tear apart everyones garbage,spread it around, run around our block all day screaming and yelling and throwing diapers at Adults and somehow We are the ones at fault. Thats another typical thing you see these days,little shitheads who have no consequences for their actions,they get away with ANYTHING. And of course their parents will always coddle and justify whatever they do.
 
So sure, Go ahead cow. Call the cops. I will promise you this however, Your little assholes will be the utter ruination of your life down the road. You will die in a Hell of your own making.So keep spoiling and defending everything they do.....They ever throw a diaper at Me and My wife again I dont care Im running them over.  

I was never interested in having kids either. My brother has three children and is totaly tied down. He has a two year old at age 47. No freedom at all. It's not for me. You are better off alone.

u should tell your parents that cuz it can be smt serious which u dont know.

I'm a 50-year-old never-married, childless woman. I knew at age 17 that I'd be this way and it's the truth of me. No regrets. Some people are pitying and others get it. Art is what I give birth to.
 
I live in a neighborhood that became filled with breeders. They seem like aliens operating under some program I can't fathom. Many of the kids are jerks and so are the parents. The parents often look tired and older than their years. Some waited until midlife to have kids and they can't seem to keep up. Sometimes I see parents with their kids and my first thought is that they are young grandparents. It just looks wrong. Some have daytime nannies who push strollers while they yak on their cells. Meanwhile the kid in the stroller has an "anywhere but here" look on his or her face.
 
The world's overpopulated. Many parents aren't even healthy grownups themselves, so they'll pass their neuroses and issues on to the children instead of healing themselves first. Children won't heal or complete you. They can be expensive, unpredictable accessories of entitlement. I wish more people would engage in more soul searching, thoughtfulness, and take a reality check before having children.

Hey, you're not alone. Seems like society expects women in particular to instantly adore kids and babies. Kids seems to get all the sympathy, the sweet looks. When they do annoying or rude stuff many adults, even those who are snooty or harsh to other adults, will often think it's cute. I think it's not so much the disliking of kids as it is feeling as if there's something wrong or bad if you don't melt at the sight of one.

I completely agree with you. I detest kids with a passion and have vowed to never have any of my own. Nothing is wrong with you, forget all these people who try to make you feel bad for who you are.