I got your problem well..cuz I had same problems with my dad like you...I think You should try to talk with him and say him to be like the old times.I know its hard but you should try to do that together.not only you or your dad..together!..you didn't talk about your mom...whats she thinkin' about it??..I'm sure she's so sad...Take Care.

Definitely go see a doctor or at least a therapist.  Even your family doctor is better than nothing.  Just like any disease, depression doesn't just magically disappear.  You wouldn't be ashamed or reluctant to get help if you had diabetes, depression shouldn't be any different.  Even if you don't want to take medication, therapists can help you deal with you the way you feel.  Please do something, it's such a waste to live feeling depressed when there are options that can help you.  Suicide should never be an option.  If you aren't ready to make the leap to seeing a doctor, start by calling one of these suicide hotlines which are toll free, available 24/7 and confidential.  Even if you aren't feeling suicidal at the moment, call anyway.
 
1-800-273-TALK (8255)
1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433)

eeh he has nice eyes...thats about it...

i m realy alone no brothers no sisters.and my parents they dont have time for me.i m realy tired.i jst want to get rid of my life.but i think of him.i love a person and he loves me to but he is a different caste so no chances of getting married.my mom would be against so i took a step of runnig away,actually my mom dont trust me.i have never done any wrong just loved a person,and he loves me too.i dont know what to do.well he is studying for medical and me in business stream.he havent completed his studies.but nearly if i get any gud relaionship my mom would tied up with some one else and i would not be able to do this please help me.we took a decision dat when he comes back i m going to run away with him..

STOP praying and do what he did find her and ask her out for a drink she will never know if you dont tell her it melted my heart to know he still thought of me after 15 years it also makes me feel safer knowing he will treat me well as i am what hes been waiting for i couldnt be happier. So tell her now before you regret it
Good luck xxx  

It's not exactly what I wanted to hear. Do you personally find his facial features attractive or unattractive?

Be glad it isn't worse.  It's not hard to think positively.  just spend your day looking at crippled people, or people so poor they are bloated and have flies all over them and are too tired to swat them away.  Quit being a whiny little girl and recognize all the things you HAVE, and quit with the selfishness of what you don't have.

expect to lose the boyfriend.  Maybe you should change your diet.  Too much sugar and red dye 40.

Lower your standards.  Plenty of women out there looking to romp.  Just may have to settle for something less than the fantasy bred into you by magazines, television, and Disney cartoons.

That's why you're losing her.  If you don't tell her then you are not the confident secure man she wants.  That is, unless you are a woman, then still, say something and don't waste another decade being shy for no good reason.

Try changing your diet.  You probably eat too much sugar and refined breads.  May want to take a rest from spanking it too, though it's not evil.  Plenty of masturbators in Heaven I assure you.

Beauty cannot be judged by aesthetics alone.  A sunrise is not beautiful just because it has nice colors.  It is beautiful because it marks the dawn of a new day, full of potential.  As for that guy in the picture, he's average.